I don't know what to write and what to begin with. That's exactly the reason why I am here. I don't know what to write because I have been bombarded with so many thoughts,emotions,confusions and fears, not just that but also overwhelmed hopes and aims. I don't know what to begin with because they are not sorted out. I can't think or feel a particular something at the moment. Its like whatever is inside is having a war within myself. I'm continuously debating with myself and not being able to come to a conclusion, and there are so many unsolved disputes as such, coming and going, coming and going that I cant even keep a track of them and worse name at least one of them in a clear way. Clear enough so that I cant put what is bothering me. I cant make others understand because I don't understand it myself. I feel lost and stranded inside this war. Imagine standing weak in the middle of a battlefield, its haunting. There is big chaos, people are screaming, blood